Stepping into me - Page 2

weebeme · 01-08-2008, 11:21 AM

Up a lb....up a lb!?!?! back to 145 that I have been since Oct! :diablo: I'm so sick of seeing this number it isn't even funny. I've been 100% on phase 1 this past week...no cheating, no cravings, drinking 64 oz of cranwater, weighing my protein, measuring my oil etc. Now....no I've not eaten both fruits, no whey smoothies so mabye that is the problem? Not eating enough??

BLAH back to the drawing board!!!

weebeme · 01-09-2008, 11:35 AM

Good morning to phase 2! I prepped lunch last night and am going to up my intake of my broccoli and carrots...I've been doing a lot of greenbeans this past week.

I felt thinner this morning but the weight still rests at 145 and measure meants stay the same.

have to get out the door to work...More to come.....

weebeme · 01-10-2008, 09:25 PM

I keep having internal arguments with myself today. This 145 # is bugging the blessing out of me!
Today I got up, drank my CW, drank my HLW, ate my 2 eggs, ate my apple snack, had my vitamins and then I walked into the kitchen to retrieve my lunch and the smell was heavenly!!! My boss decided to make a huge crockpot of Barley Buttermilk Soup she got out of a vegetarian cookbook. She also made a huge pan of jalapeno corn bread. I took a teeeeny taste of the soup off a teaspoon and it was wonderful. Then heated my now 'boring' lunch and went and ate.

ITS GIRL SCOUT COOKIE TIME!!! Those words are haunting me! One of the students I tutor hit me up to buy some off her as I do every year... so I bought the peanut butter sandwich cookies for the kids (the boys like these). Then today one of the kindergarteners next door to my classroom sold me a box of the peanut butter patties (my daughter likes these). So, home I go and of course someone opened the cookies and the smell is wonderful and I want one! Then I go looking for a snack and the bag of sour dough pretzels are yelling "OVER HERE!"
I grabbed and orange and ran and am hiding in my room!

I know and see it for what it is.... I am in that 'I don't care anymore' phase that I tend to get into when I feel a diet isn't working for me When here, I start to take small 'liberties' often saying "I don't care" Or "No is going to know, or cares"...but, I have to remind myself, this isn't just a 'diet' this is a choice way of eating for health and feeling good, not just the weight loss.
Do I feel good? Yes
Do I sleep much better? Yes
Do I look good? Hell Yes!
So...I'm staying away as hard as it feels right now and sticking to my plan.
Lisa

weebeme · 01-11-2008, 12:11 PM

Phase 2...
1 friendly carb (sweet potato) added in at lunch = -1 lb but am wondering if it is ounces as when I first woke and weighed I was 145...then did my 'business' and it then showed 144 hmmmm

Am so glad it is Friday! mothers at work are now asking me for information on the diet, what should they buy, is it easy yada yada. One woman is starting tomorrow with the 3 day FTDD fast and then going onto that. Another, who is a news anchor, wants it now...
and I love to see people try it out!!

Lisa

weebeme · 01-11-2008, 10:29 PM

Funny things my students and past students have said to me since I've been on FF.

"Those eggs aren't for project, are they?"

Bumped into a student from last year at the soccer field. She didn't recognize me at all.
Her mother says
"You remember Ms Lisa don't you?"
She nods and says
But you aren't Ms. Lisa... She's fat with a round tummy! and you don't look like her!"

At Christmas this was relayed as a student was shopping at the grocery store and wondering what I'd like for Christmas.

"Mom, don't buy Ms. Lisa any chocolate she can't eat it! She loves eggs so lets buy her eggs"

"Ms Lisa is allergic to chocolate."
child was explaining to another classmate why I passed up dipping into the holiday bowl of chocolates the secretary walked into the room with.

and my favorite

"Oh, Ms. Lisa brought her eggs in again. She loves to eat Rotten Eggs"

LOL.... I think of their preceptions and it brightens my day!

weebeme · 01-12-2008, 07:22 PM

I just got finished running some important errands and want to just record the immense pride I am feeling in myself right now!

Gratitude Gratitude....
For willpower
For scales that work
For the ability to work hard and pay bills, taking care of us
For having been married to a wonderful and caring man who taught me to stand up for myself
For helpful children who don't mind taking photos of their everchanging mom!
For support that comes in a varity of ways through wrods from family, friends and strangers

I dropped to 142 today

This number has not shown been one I've seen on the scale this decade!
I got up and instead of a walk, I put in the Turbo Jam DVD and did the 20 min workout. I love that DVD workout!

I have chili wating for me and am off to have some yummy lunch!!

Lisa

weebeme · 01-13-2008, 02:49 PM

I'm being lazy this moring.... but with good reason, dog had me up at 3 am...she had the dry heaves...weird..but then again normal for my chocolate addicted dog as she got into a small bag of M&Ms my son had in his backback...she needs rehab!

I slept til 8:45 and am missing mass right now but I'm going to be gentle with tired me.
I intend to put the turbo jam back in the dvd player and do the work out, I'm feeling sore in a few areas from yesterday's workout which is good!

This morning I think I'll have my friendly card during bfast... potato pancakes sound good right now!

weebeme · 01-14-2008, 01:55 PM

Whoo hooo sing with me... Its a snoooooowwww day, its a snoooooooow day! I love this treat of an extra day off.

In the past, today would be a day to bake brownies, eat popcorn with hotchocolate and other treats...why??? I think it links back to my childhood when after a day of playing in the snow, or helping shovel out the driveway, my mom would treat us to something special. Only as an adult I over indulged in the treats!

Today I have a plan. I woke at 5am to check for school cancellations and then got up and drank my LLC. In 10 mins, I'm headed into the kitchen to make my HLW and start my eggs. Then I'll go out and snowblow the driveway and shovel off the porch. (The kids are still sleeping)

I also want to don my exercise wear and get a photo as my latest picture in my picture trail is me in clothing that is looking baggy!! After the photo op...I'll exercise to Turbo Jam and then do some cleaning that didn't happen over the weekend!

Yesterday I was going through clothing in the bottom of my drawer and piling it into bags for salvation army...can't believe I was holding onto summer things in size 16 an 14!! Even a bathing suit that was a 20W...tried it on and the bottom was hanging around my legs! LOL! I went to put on a pair of pants I bought at the LLBean outlet a few weeks ago... thought I bought a 10 and was surprised they were snug. I could button them but they are tight....then looked and they are a size 8...BUT I COULD BUTTON THEM!!!! 8s here I come!!!!

Have a great FF day!

weebeme · 01-14-2008, 02:52 PM

I just stepped on the scale and am happy to report another lb had flushed away!!

down to 141.... from 187 that is 46 lbs!!

weebeme · 01-16-2008, 02:49 AM

Yesterday we had a snow storm barrell through my area, which resulted in a snow day! So the kids and I were home for the day. I got up, snowblowed the driveway, shoveled off the steps and had all plans and intentions for a great FF kinda day..... then it happened...
I started going through my desk and looking at pictures of 'yesterday' My emotional persona took over and before I knew what was going on, I'd downed a ton of carbs and cookies!! YIKES!!!

Later, I did pop in my turbo jam dvd and exercised. Then drank a ton, took my evening supplements and went to bed. At first I was very unhappy with myself but I have to give myself a little gentleness here. Today marks the the day that 6 yrs ago my husband went into the hospital for his operation. It was today that he never woke up again and we were told he was in a coma. I never got to hear his voice or feel myself wrapped in his arms ever again. So I give myself permission to be sad, to grieve what transpired and what was taken from my life, from my kids lives but I have to grieve in a way that doesn't involve non-FF foods!!

With this knowledge about myself, I went into today much gentler. I have followed phase 2 100% and am happy to say I am feeling much better this evening (all that sugar had me wake up this morning with sour stomach!).

Lisa

01-08-2008, 11:21 AM	#11 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	Up a lb....up a lb!?!?! back to 145 that I have been since Oct! :diablo: I'm so sick of seeing this number it isn't even funny. I've been 100% on phase 1 this past week...no cheating, no cravings, drinking 64 oz of cranwater, weighing my protein, measuring my oil etc. Now....no I've not eaten both fruits, no whey smoothies so mabye that is the problem? Not eating enough?? BLAH back to the drawing board!!! __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-09-2008, 11:35 AM	#12 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	Good morning to phase 2! I prepped lunch last night and am going to up my intake of my broccoli and carrots...I've been doing a lot of greenbeans this past week. I felt thinner this morning but the weight still rests at 145 and measure meants stay the same. have to get out the door to work...More to come..... __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-10-2008, 09:25 PM	#13 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	I keep having internal arguments with myself today. This 145 # is bugging the blessing out of me! Today I got up, drank my CW, drank my HLW, ate my 2 eggs, ate my apple snack, had my vitamins and then I walked into the kitchen to retrieve my lunch and the smell was heavenly!!! My boss decided to make a huge crockpot of Barley Buttermilk Soup she got out of a vegetarian cookbook. She also made a huge pan of jalapeno corn bread. I took a teeeeny taste of the soup off a teaspoon and it was wonderful. Then heated my now 'boring' lunch and went and ate. ITS GIRL SCOUT COOKIE TIME!!! Those words are haunting me! One of the students I tutor hit me up to buy some off her as I do every year... so I bought the peanut butter sandwich cookies for the kids (the boys like these). Then today one of the kindergarteners next door to my classroom sold me a box of the peanut butter patties (my daughter likes these). So, home I go and of course someone opened the cookies and the smell is wonderful and I want one! Then I go looking for a snack and the bag of sour dough pretzels are yelling "OVER HERE!" I grabbed and orange and ran and am hiding in my room! I know and see it for what it is.... I am in that 'I don't care anymore' phase that I tend to get into when I feel a diet isn't working for me When here, I start to take small 'liberties' often saying "I don't care" Or "No is going to know, or cares"...but, I have to remind myself, this isn't just a 'diet' this is a choice way of eating for health and feeling good, not just the weight loss. Do I feel good? Yes Do I sleep much better? Yes Do I look good? Hell Yes! So...I'm staying away as hard as it feels right now and sticking to my plan. Lisa __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-11-2008, 12:11 PM	#14 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	Phase 2... 1 friendly carb (sweet potato) added in at lunch = -1 lb but am wondering if it is ounces as when I first woke and weighed I was 145...then did my 'business' and it then showed 144 hmmmm Am so glad it is Friday! mothers at work are now asking me for information on the diet, what should they buy, is it easy yada yada. One woman is starting tomorrow with the 3 day FTDD fast and then going onto that. Another, who is a news anchor, wants it now... and I love to see people try it out!! Lisa __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-11-2008, 10:29 PM	#15 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	Funny things my students and past students have said to me since I've been on FF. "Those eggs aren't for project, are they?" Bumped into a student from last year at the soccer field. She didn't recognize me at all. Her mother says "You remember Ms Lisa don't you?" She nods and says But you aren't Ms. Lisa... She's fat with a round tummy! and you don't look like her!" At Christmas this was relayed as a student was shopping at the grocery store and wondering what I'd like for Christmas. "Mom, don't buy Ms. Lisa any chocolate she can't eat it! She loves eggs so lets buy her eggs" "Ms Lisa is allergic to chocolate." child was explaining to another classmate why I passed up dipping into the holiday bowl of chocolates the secretary walked into the room with. and my favorite "Oh, Ms. Lisa brought her eggs in again. She loves to eat Rotten Eggs" LOL.... I think of their preceptions and it brightens my day! __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-12-2008, 07:22 PM	#16 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	I just got finished running some important errands and want to just record the immense pride I am feeling in myself right now! Gratitude Gratitude.... For willpower For scales that work For the ability to work hard and pay bills, taking care of us For having been married to a wonderful and caring man who taught me to stand up for myself For helpful children who don't mind taking photos of their everchanging mom! For support that comes in a varity of ways through wrods from family, friends and strangers I dropped to 142 today This number has not shown been one I've seen on the scale this decade! I got up and instead of a walk, I put in the Turbo Jam DVD and did the 20 min workout. I love that DVD workout! I have chili wating for me and am off to have some yummy lunch!! Lisa __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-13-2008, 02:49 PM	#17 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	I'm being lazy this moring.... but with good reason, dog had me up at 3 am...she had the dry heaves...weird..but then again normal for my chocolate addicted dog as she got into a small bag of M&Ms my son had in his backback...she needs rehab! I slept til 8:45 and am missing mass right now but I'm going to be gentle with tired me. I intend to put the turbo jam back in the dvd player and do the work out, I'm feeling sore in a few areas from yesterday's workout which is good! This morning I think I'll have my friendly card during bfast... potato pancakes sound good right now! __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-14-2008, 01:55 PM	#18 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	Whoo hooo sing with me... Its a snoooooowwww day, its a snoooooooow day! I love this treat of an extra day off. In the past, today would be a day to bake brownies, eat popcorn with hotchocolate and other treats...why??? I think it links back to my childhood when after a day of playing in the snow, or helping shovel out the driveway, my mom would treat us to something special. Only as an adult I over indulged in the treats! Today I have a plan. I woke at 5am to check for school cancellations and then got up and drank my LLC. In 10 mins, I'm headed into the kitchen to make my HLW and start my eggs. Then I'll go out and snowblow the driveway and shovel off the porch. (The kids are still sleeping) I also want to don my exercise wear and get a photo as my latest picture in my picture trail is me in clothing that is looking baggy!! After the photo op...I'll exercise to Turbo Jam and then do some cleaning that didn't happen over the weekend! Yesterday I was going through clothing in the bottom of my drawer and piling it into bags for salvation army...can't believe I was holding onto summer things in size 16 an 14!! Even a bathing suit that was a 20W...tried it on and the bottom was hanging around my legs! LOL! I went to put on a pair of pants I bought at the LLBean outlet a few weeks ago... thought I bought a 10 and was surprised they were snug. I could button them but they are tight....then looked and they are a size 8...BUT I COULD BUTTON THEM!!!! 8s here I come!!!! Have a great FF day! __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-14-2008, 02:52 PM	#19 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	I just stepped on the scale and am happy to report another lb had flushed away!! down to 141.... from 187 that is 46 lbs!! __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

01-16-2008, 02:49 AM	#20 (permalink)
weebeme User Title: Super-Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: MA, USA. Posts: 615	Yesterday we had a snow storm barrell through my area, which resulted in a snow day! So the kids and I were home for the day. I got up, snowblowed the driveway, shoveled off the steps and had all plans and intentions for a great FF kinda day..... then it happened... I started going through my desk and looking at pictures of 'yesterday' My emotional persona took over and before I knew what was going on, I'd downed a ton of carbs and cookies!! YIKES!!! Later, I did pop in my turbo jam dvd and exercised. Then drank a ton, took my evening supplements and went to bed. At first I was very unhappy with myself but I have to give myself a little gentleness here. Today marks the the day that 6 yrs ago my husband went into the hospital for his operation. It was today that he never woke up again and we were told he was in a coma. I never got to hear his voice or feel myself wrapped in his arms ever again. So I give myself permission to be sad, to grieve what transpired and what was taken from my life, from my kids lives but I have to grieve in a way that doesn't involve non-FF foods!! With this knowledge about myself, I went into today much gentler. I have followed phase 2 100% and am happy to say I am feeling much better this evening (all that sugar had me wake up this morning with sour stomach!). Lisa __________________ Stats! Began FF 5/28/07 5' 2.75" and that .75 is important don't you know! 187/139/135 Restart 12/18/09....fell off wagon and then... Restarted the restart FF 7/13/10 190/183/140 Visit my photo album http://www.picturetrail.com/photos/weebeme my blog http://www.lisa-itsallaboutme.blogspot.com

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